A Little Assistance, Please?

[The Squeak]

Don't exactly know where to put this, but I figured this place fit the bill better than everywhere else.

I'm starting to believe I either have thin skin, or that I'm completely devoid of a sense of humor. I'm sure there's a handful of you that are probably thinking the same thing: my attitude in the Chatbox hasn't been "perky", and I seem to brood over a lot of insignificant things.

I blame my pessimism on the Digimon site I used to administer: that site's experienced a fluctuation in trollish behaviour as of recent, and I was subjected to a fair-sized chunk of it. Though the Staff Members of that site pay no mind to these trolls (and deal with them accordingly) and view me as a good person, I felt my pride as an Admin was crippled. (Among the things I was accused of being was a plagiarist, hypocritical, and bigoted [in the ignorant sense].)

I took it personal. Call that selfish or childish, but I took it personal. I left the site to avoid any further attempts to scar my reputation amongst my friends. They understand why I quit, and I'm glad they do: but I can't bring it upon myself to ever go back there again.

The reason I'm posting this is because I think my past is catching up to me. I used to be rather apathetic about that kind of behaviour, but nowadays it's begun to make my skin crawl at the thought of being a sour grape in the eyes of a bright and sunny community like you guys. I really do have a sense of humor: I love to laugh and smile. But, I'm finding it harder and harder to differentiate between lighthearted jokes and trollish behaviour now, and it's really bugging me.

I wanna move on. But, I need help. Is there a way I can drop what's eating me, and obtain that resilience again? I'm also starting to think I may be holding a grudge of some kind...

^{_{Yeah, I'm probably posting a selfish thread, but I really want some help. .____.}}

[prythian]

Hmmmm...

To be honest, the best way I can think of is to simply stay here with one bit of knowledge:

None of us troll people. (At least, not people on this site; I can't vouch than no member here ever trolls anyone.)

We don't try to deliberately hurt other people or anything, and if we did hurt someone else, I can't think of a single active member on here that wouldn't apologize when it got called to their attention.

If you've been burned before, then your wariness is perfectly reasonable, so I think hanging around here where there's this large lighthearted exuberant attitude might get you loosened up once more... and even if it does, I can say that I at least won't care, and I'm confident enough to say it's not all that likely for the others to care as well.

Just keep in mind that none of us are trolls, and it is likely we won't care how you act so long as you don't lash out at us. And you don't strike me as the type of person to lash out at us, so I have no worries on that.

*nods*

[mrcrazycakes]

If this is about the Halloween Town thing, I'm sorry D: I was kidding around. I'm hardly ever serious in there unless it's about RP stoof or me doing work I've been neglecting. Like Pryth said, none of us here on this site in particular are trolls; if something we say offends you, we don't mean to be offensive, we're just kidding around like usual :D

[The Squeak]

That's what I mean. I know for a fact that you guys aren't trolling or being offensive or mean or anything. As far as the Halloween Town thing went, I really didn't mean to take that "offensively", or even brood over it: that warrants an apology from me, on my behalf. I'm just frustrated at myself at the moment for being such a thin-skinned airhead. XD I'm really sorry if I take anything personal. I really don't mean to.

[prythian]

Don't worry about it.

...I realize how unhelpful I'm being, but that's all I can offer. You either worry about it or don't. I think you should just not worry about it.

[Spring [Complex]]

Hmm given your circumstances, I do agree that it won't be easy to regain your thickskin. Take it slow is the best way to go in this one. You may want to focus on just RP to get yourself planted, this will help you to really understand how a lot of people play here and that might help the healing process a bit. There's certainly no "quick fix", it's just going to take some time and being around a community like this helps a lot.

[Rocket!]

Sure, your hackles are a little raised after one too many run ins with a troll or four hundred, and, well, it's hard to multitask raised hackles with light hearted conversation.

What's it take to lower the hackles?

Time. [/inPryth'shead]

It may be a bit before you can roll with the punches-- no offense, Mister the Muffin Cannon-- but we're not going anywhere anytime soon, not so unlike yourself, I do so rudely presume!

Time heals all wounds, Squeakster!

But yeah, you should totally find more excuses to pipe up in the cbox. XP

[NiNeLiVeS]

I know it can be weird, sometimes, to show up on a Cbox where everyone knows everyone else - but trust me when I say that our wackiest moments have the best of intentions at heart.

Well, I hope anyway.

Speak up! We won't bite!

This was totally something I did or said, wasn't it? D: D: D: